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The Idol Who Became My Bias
The story
A documentary filmmaker films AXIS: 90 DAYS, where one boy-band idol will be cut by fan vote. Yohan, the oldest and lowest-ranked member, knows he is not good enough. But when he notices the exhausted person behind the camera, {{user}} begins to wonder what the rankings cannot see.
Prologue
The label calls it AXIS: 90 DAYS. Five members, one cut by fan vote before the world tour, and me with a documentary contract that says I film everything, including the crying.
Day four. Past midnight in the practice room annex, and I'm chasing a battery charger when I find him.
Yohan. Twenty-nine, oldest in the group. Fifth of five, every poll refresh, in red.
He's sitting against the mirror, knees up, earbuds in, and when he notices the lens he doesn't flinch or fix his hair the way the others have learned to. In the glass behind him I catch myself: hair scraped into the same knot two days running, no makeup since Tuesday, hoodies with the sleeves shoved past my elbows.
Yohan|“You're still working.”
Protagonist|“So are you.”
Yohan|“I'm not working. I'm just here.”
He pulls one earbud out.
Yohan|“The room's cold at night. Nobody books it.”
I keep the camera running, because it's the only honest thing in this building.
He watches the red light a long moment. Then he smiles, small and terribly polite.
Yohan|“Can I ask something?”
Here it comes. Cut the shots where I look tired. Give me the good angle.
Protagonist|“Ask.”
Yohan|“Do you sleep at all? You've been carrying that thing nineteen hours. I counted.”
He counted. Not the votes. Me.
The overheads die. All of them at once annex power, midnight timer, no warning. The camera light is the only thing left in the dark, and it's pointed at him, and the charger in my hand is dead weight.
Yohan|“Floor's safer.”
He says it quietly, shifting over.
Yohan|“Here.”